Journal Entry: Sun Feb 13, 2011, 6:42 PM
Yep. I'm one of those who doesn't really celebrate Valentine's Day. Just never felt the need to. It's so damn commercialized these days that it makes me sick to my stomach. People shouldn't have to have a reason to be romantic or show extra affection to their significant others. Be grateful you have them every day and don't take it for granted. You never know when it can possibly be taken from you. Every day should be an opportunity to learn something new about him/her and it should be a learning experience in the realm of 'love'. Should be, but isn't, for some. It's a sad reality.
Enough about that.
Lot of shit's gone on in my life. I've changed. Still am changing. Will always be changing. My two year art block is finally coming to a close, but I no longer feel the need to share my work with the internet. This is strictly an account to view other work with and keep track of what inspires me and what I like. I have no choice but to revive my website for the sake of having a viewable portfolio for potential future clients. That will be a fair distance in the future, however. School's a busy hell away from home and it keeps me on my toes. I'm hoping once I get past this first year I'll feel a bit better about my decisions. I've just been stuck at the beginning stages of things for so long that I feel like I haven't made any real progress in my life in the last four years. I'm ready to be done with this chapter of my life and move on. At twenty years old I've dealt with more life-changing experiences than you can shake a dead cat at. So yes, I would like to move on and make new memories instead of being revisited by the ones I already have.
My father is still without a job. Have no idea how my parents are still making it. They amaze me every day with how they deal with this hard spot in life. I am happy to know that I am their daughter and that they love me and support me.
My stomach condition has been found out. I have what would appear to be a bulimic's stomach, yet I've never been as such. Pretty much my stomach doesn't process food like it's supposed to, so it ends up sitting in my stomach for far longer than it should. Acid builds up and makes me feel sick easily. I have a hard time distinguishing between when I'm hungry and when I'm going to be sick. I also have a huge lack of appetite. I can go all day without eating and not even think about it. This is something I was born with so there's no chance of it ever going away. Can only manage it with medication that sends my mind for a loop. Damn stomach is what put me in all this shit to begin with. Fml.
I'm leaving World of Warcraft for an upcoming game called Rift. All of the people I know are migrating there. Not only is it cheaper, but the graphics are amazing and the overall set up is just so much better. No more trying to get into raids but being denied because of gear or a gearscore. It's sad, though, because I've been technically playing since Vanilla. Lots of good memories. But it is just a game, after all.
That's all I can think of, for now. The rest is too personal to post on a site like this. Even though I know many don't even bother to read what I have to say. Just not known enough. Just don't spark enough interest for people.
That's alright, though. I'm used to it. I'm used to being seen as a wallflower even though I'm not.
Take care of yourselves, now. Life awaits.
Listening to: Muse.
Reading: Art History notes.
Watching: Outlaw Star.